Here I Am

This is me... Everything seems good atm.

Well...

It sucks that I aren't going to a party tonight, cause I really feel like drinking me brain out... Forget about everything and just have a good time. FML.. Oh well, guess I'll just have a night home.. Supposed to be with my boyfriend tomorrow, but then I found out I have this handball thing at 1 pm, I'll be home around 4 pm. Don't think he wants to come over there, because then it's close to dinner, and for some reason, he wants to eat at home, and since they first eat around 7 pm, He'll won't be able to come before 8, and since he at that point are going to be tired, he will go around 10 pm, which means I'll get to be with him for two hours.. And that's just so typical.. It sukcs and it irritates me. He is going to a party tonight, where I asked if he could get me into it, he then only asked yesterday evening.... Kind of sick of it

P-A-R-T-Y

Oh yes! It's party time at school again! And it's going to be freaking AWESOME! Really can't wait. EPIC I TELL YOU!

Why?

Why does it always happen to me???
I hate it... Hate me life
My foot hurts like hell.. Gonna hurt even more tomorrow when the pills stop working..

They describe what I feel

"we found real love in this cold word isn't that what life is about?"


This one had to come in. Couldn't find the version anywhere else. It's so beautiful.
"Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard"


"Go on and try to tear me down, I will be rising from the ground like a skyscraper"

Feels like everything is out of my hands, started school last Wednesday, same day I had a massive breakdown, just sat in my bed crying for 10 minutes. I was just like nothing made sense. Lately I haven't been feeling, no one has noticed. But who can blame them? No one never know when I'm down..


Posted a video on my boyfriends wall like a week ago, when I asked if he heard it, he answered "Yes, it sounded good." Not a thing about if it was sweet or thank you or anything.. Just yes. I don't know what to do. I feel like I have to fight to get him to notice me, He's always to busy to see me, he's never asking about anything else than "what are you doing."
Then also a while ago I asked him something, the answer really got to me, wont go in to it further where everyone can read it, but it just hurt, he has said other things lately that have really gotten to me and made me feel bad about my self and my life. And now I'm in tears again, so wont ramble on further.
Even though there is one good thing atm. My handball is going better.

In four days

I'll be sitting in school again! I want more vacation!!

Also in four days it's 10 months with Christian.. <3

Enough said.

Never Enough

Had to put this up.. How I feel much?