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I don't want to hear about it!

You know that feeling? Not wanting to hear about things? Well my best friend has just been on a skiing trip with a lot of other people from school, including my x. And I'm sure she is going to tell me about it, how amazing it was, all the stupid and fun things they did. I just don't want to hear about it. It's gonna make me jealous and I'm gonna have a hard time faking the happy face saying "sounds great" and laughing over the things they found funny while being down there and all the things they can talk about now, which I will have no clue about. But she's my best friend so I'm gonna but on that mask of being happy because I know she have had the best time while being there. But that is what you do right? Put on the mask, being happy even though you don't really want to.

P.S. I love you

But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. P.S. I will always love you.

I watched "P.S. I love you" last night, not to feel sorry for my self or to cry, but to remind myself that even though it hurts, I can fall in love again, I will fall in love again. And I shouldn't be afraid of falling in love again, cause he choose to leave me. He is one chapter in my life.. There will be more.

Depressing thoughts.

I'll come back to the picture. Not having the best of times at the moment. I don't know where to start. My sister died on the second of February, she's been in and out of the hospital the last year, but this time she didn't make it. It's hard getting through this, because I can't just start crying. I feel like I need to be strong, for her. But yes, I do feel like crying and just give up on everything, but I won't do that. I'll get through it with my family.
I'd never had my heart broken, before he broke it. I've been thinking a lot about it lately and I'm in the making of a decision, I won't tell it here, cause I know he might read it. But I have to talk to him.. We'll se how it goes.