I don't know

I don't know what to write, cause tbh my life feels perfect atm. I can't really point out a mistake.
Let me give you some updates then..

I'm going to OL in the summer, I'm SO excited about it!!!! It's with the national team, so hopefully I'll play more nationalmatches than my mom, she has played 4 I think, I'm on 3 atm! And there's 5 matches at OL!

Going to see my old class tomorrow evening, I'm quit happy about it. there is some I haven't seen in a year soon, so should be good, don't know if I will be drinken because.... I'm going to my boyfriends brothers confirmation, with all their friends and family and how will it look if I came with a hangover???? Not good!

My first year of High School is done! Well soon, I have 1 exam and a year test, We have final school day on the 23th of june, but my exam is on the 16th, so after that it's byebye school until august! :D

They once said:

“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.” ♥ -Bob Marley

"This is what we call love. When you are loved, you can do anything in creation. When you are loved, there’s no need at all to understand what’s happening, because everything happens within you." - Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

What can I say?

I love you...
But I'm afraid, afraid that you might not love me just as much. I'm afraid you're loosing feelings for me, I'm afraid you don't love me anymore. I'm afraid I've done something wrong. I'm afraid of loosing you, not just afraid, terrified. Because I'm still madly in love with you, the thought of your kiss, you arms around me, it gives me chills, I can't explain it. It's more powerful than anything. The thought of you going on vacation scares me now, after what I read, it's only been a year, have you really changed that much? Am I just being stupid and to in love? is there such a thing as being to much in love? There are questions I want to ask you, but I'm afraid of hearing the answer, I'm afraid you won't give me the answer I need to hear, I need to hear it from you... If you're beginning to be impatient, are you still in love in those you used to have feelings for? Are you loosing feelings for me? Have I done something wrong? Why am I afraid to ask you? Why am I afraid to kiss you when you want to sleep? Why can't you hear in my voice that am sad, when all you do is say goodnight?


Sorry it has been so long /: